Confessions of a Lovaholic... :-)

When I love, there is no other emotion that i want to experience but that. I take time to love a person, thing or place but when I eventually  do love them/it , I know it is going to be forever. I love like there is no tomorrow because the last time i checked with myself, it was an emotion absolutely free of cost. I do come across people who love to burst my belief but then I forgive them. I do that because we are both connected by the same emotion - Love. Some say time is priceless but I believe that LOVE is priceless. Why would one need time if they don't love what they are spending it for? When I fall in love, I find that inner peace. I cannot think of disliking or hating the person/thing/place that had once been at the receiving end of my love. For me, love is void of any validity or condition and I am not ashamed to accept it and express it. I do not believe in hiding love and I must be truly blessed to be blessed with this emotion in abundance. 
Love was never meant to be perfect, neither does it promise to be perfect. But it is the imperfection I love. My name is Parvathy and yes! I am a LOVAHOLIC...

A love story that never ended...

"I love you too. We will work things out". A dream statement for any person who is hopelessly in love or for somebody who has put their faith and trust in their partner. A statement that promises a happy ending. But in the case of this story, there never was an ending.
When i told my cousin of this title, she asked me who the protagonist was and I replied, "Me". She probed me a little and asked, "the male protagonist" and I replied, "whoever knows me will know who the male is and for those of them who don't, the story is enough". So stop looking for name starting from...Now! I have never wanted to blog about something that was too personal but I guessed I would rather write about it and let people know, "We have all been through this".
A break up is never easy. You break up because you know things are not going well between the 2 people involved. "The best thing about a break up is the break up itself" (according to Indian film star Ranbir Kapoor). But what happens if everything was going well? That brings me to my next question, the worst thing about a break up? When the person involved is left to assume that it is over. I have been the "victim" twice. At least the first time, I was "informed" about it via a text message much later. The second time round, I thought dating a matured man would save me these sort of juvenile behaviour but to my surprise i realised, it is not about the age but just the fact that "Men get cold feet..Period"! By the lack of interest in responding to my calls and messages, I knew it in my heart and mind alike that it was reaching the end of its validity period. Contrary to the Sim card where you can recharge, I knew there was nothing i could do to recharge the interest. But i never accepted it. I hoped, i prayed, I waited. I was in love for Pete's sake, I could not let go!
Today, I have better sense. I do not want sympathies. I did fine without it and I am still doing well. I have moved on. But I was in love and maybe that is why I am not sorry that it still hurts. I never had an answer to a question to myself and the people around me, "What did i do to deserve this"? Today, I have an answer, "He did not do anything to deserve me". Ending my life or doing crazy things was never an option. I wanted to live, fall in love again. 
I never fell out of love nor did I stop loving him. He just chose to deny himself of my love and leave our story with a lot of blank pages.

Love you till the end....

I take immense pride today in talking about a man who is not only my role model but also a role model for many others..My father! Father's are the most understated people in one's life. A silent member of the family who is looked upon in times of financial crisis or when things are messed up. But to me, my father is somebody who has been a part of lots of firsts in my life. The first man I have loved unconditionally and the first man I have ever danced with. Like every man, my father is a proud man too. But unlike every man, he is an epitome of patience, wisdom and positivity. As my sister and I were growing up, he was growing up with us too. From a father who wanted to protect his daughters from the big bad ugly world to the father who let us live our lives in our own terms yet never failing to catch us when we stumbled upon the mistakes we committed. Never the one to tell us "I told you so" he has always the one to tell us "Such is life, and you need to face it with courage". My father has been my knight in shining armour who has fought all odds to give us the best and protect us from the worst yet making us independent. Mother's love is definitely unconditional but Father's love, for me, is even beyond unconditional. 
There are numerous sayings on how God couldn't be everywhere and that is when he created mothers. Always made me wonder if I had to say something about my father in a sentence,what it would be. I now know what I would say. It would be "God had to personify himself and so he created my father". Happy Father's Day Acha!
I will love you till the end. 

Memories...That make Life!

As I pack my bag to enter the beginning of yet another phase in my life, I look back at the 10 months of my life that I spent in search of peace, happiness and freedom. What i eventually did find is love, respect and myself! I had lost myself somewhere in my quest for a better life. These 10 months has been a learning experience that has made me a better person and most importantly got me to understand my father better! I am taking along with me some of the most wonderful moments that I have been a part of with the people I love. Conversations over lunch, dinners and drives by the beach, sitting in absolute silence, arguments over petty issues, shopping, movies and ice creams on winter evenings! Quality time with the people I love was much needed to understand my relationship with them better. I know I am never going to get these moments back even if I want to. But I am wrapping these precious moments as memories and taking it along with me. They are my Life guru's that will remind me of my blessed past and beckon me to a wonderful future which is the result of a beautiful present.

How I know my Mother...

Its been 21 years and 10 months since I know "the" most wonderful human being in my life. The woman who gave me a chance to experience the magic called life. My mother! She has been the silent support for me throughout these years and has always ensured that even I voice my opinions on matters close to both our hearts. The woman I turn to in despair, happiness, anxiety and ecstasy. When i was younger, she held my hand and taught me to walk on the right path.  As i grew older, she let me find the path that i thought was right. She let me commit mistakes in the belief that I will learn from them and emerge as a woman who would be ready to take on the challenges that life would throw at me. She let me be independent in my thoughts and encouraged me to come to terms with the person I am.She taught me there is no stronger emotion than love and to love unconditionally is a virtue. She taught me honesty will always take me places and that trust in yourself and others is most important. Today, if I am loved and treasured by the people around me, it is because of the one woman I love and treasure the most.My mother!
They say, God couldn't be everywhere and so he created mothers. I say, God couldn't epitomise  love, trust, support and strength and so he created My Mother! I don't think I have thanked her enough for being the strength in my life and this is just an attempt to do just that. I love and respect you immensely Ma!Thank you for being "you" and thank you for letting me be "me".

Celebrating Womanhood....

"Behind every successful man is a successful woman". A saying that doesn't seem to have an expiry date. A saying that has the shelf life of time immemorial. But its not just a saying anymore. It is the FACT of life. One individual and various roles. Who better to play them than the species who supposedly comes from Venus and whom the Earthlings refer to as "Women". It is a woman who makes or breaks the family. It is a woman who holds the fort together when the storm decides to pay a visit. It is a woman who people turn to in their times of trouble and need. It is a woman who says that silent prayer for you. It is a woman who cries with you and laughs with you. And it is most definitely a woman who gives that love unconditionally. These days, I have even started to believe that Cupid has to be a woman. Who else loves the game of matchmaking or loves love the way a woman does? The world officially celebrates womanhood on a particular day. But all of you, take each day to thank the women in your life for whatever little they might have contributed to make you a better person. And to all the women, your God's best gift to yourself. Its entirely in your hands to make those efforts worthy!

Find Your Calling...

When i was in the 4th grade, I wanted to go to the US and do my medicine to become a doctor.It was my dream till the 8th grade. In the 9th grade I realised, science and I were never meant to be and so I let go of that dream. I am now pursuing a dream I have had since the 11th grade, to be a noted journalist. Supporting me in my varying dreams were my parents who let me decide for myself what I wanted to make of my life. Not everybody(associated with me or not associated with me)are lucky to have parents such as mine. "You have to become an engineer or a doctor. I could not become one, I want you to fulfill my dream" says the father. The child starts living the dream that the father saw for himself and eventually reaches a saturation point of frustration. What next?The blame game begins. Anger, curses, negative thoughts fills the mind. Why life a life of misery? You might as well live a life where YOUR goals and ambitions are given priority. Belief in yourself is all that it takes to convince whomsoever concerned. At the end of the day, a happy and successful offspring is what makes the parent proud and happy. Find your calling, pursue it, leaving no way for regrets.